| do you really think that things are solved that easily?
if all it takes is for me to grin and bear it, then i suppose it'll do.
men can be so dense it kills me. ah, the things we do for love.
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| my house is creaky at night... it's creepy.
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| i think and want so many things from this relationship but i can never manage to show or tell you exactly what it is that i want. i know it's my fault. thus i reiterated. and thus the problems keep reappearing... |
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| and here i was hoping youd turn around and come back. today, you asked me why dont i ever open up to you when the funny thing about all of this is the fact that i think you know me better than anyone else and that i consider you my very best friend. but even so, i guess you dont know as much about me as someone in your position should, right? truth is. i just dont know how to say things.. even now.. the only thing i can think of is more lack of words. about how my lack of words cause nothing but trouble. and that trouble leads to more lack of words. and the fact that i cant really manifest what im feeling into words is what destroys what i have with people. i see it happen. i cry. i hate myself for it. but even so. no matter how i try to be better, its always the same. i feel and think a million things but the only words that manage to form from all of it max out at a couple syllables at best. i do things and hope for other things to happen. this happens more with you than anyone. and i suppose thats why i feel so many times that it will never work. i think and want so many things from this relationship but i can never manage to show or tell you exactly what it is that i want. i know it's my fault. i know you love me, but i fear that its only a matter of time until you leave and dont plan to come back at all. |
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| well shit... not much else to say? haha.. |
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